The past week was breathless and crazy. On Thursday and Friday I stayed in office till midnight; nonetheless I managed to settle for supper with Ash Christine and Jason where we encountered a strange black cat upon bidding goodbyes. Saturday and Sunday found me in the office yet again, and after a 7 day workweek I decided treat myself to a break on Monday, and made my way to Jason's place first thing in the morning to catch him asleep. I crawled into bed to give him a pleasant surprise and he wore an ecstasy smile for the rest of the morning. We slept alot and had very vivid dreams; I dreamt of work ( oh dear the haunting of a 7 day workweek ). In the evening I retreated home with the family watching Rosy Business, which boasts an enthralling storyline that I really enjoy.



Today crept upon me, and I had a sudden invitation to Fareast Boneless Chicken Rice with Sam Yogi Christine Ash, there was tender juicy chicken but disappointingly bland rice and soup; the saving grace was a very amiable uncle. We waited more than half an hour for a bus in the humid Singapore air, our cheeks warm and body sticky. Then Ash and Christine walked me back to the Burberry Office, where I shall begin looking forward to tonight's activities, because I plan for a little mid-July adventure with scary dinosaurs and funny squirels.




So tiresome to be human sometimes.

It is painful when 2 people with good intentions end up with a dispute, one with no obvious compromise. On the other hand, there are also people that you offend unwittingly, who have an unfavorable opinion towards you, and regard you with cold civility, forced speech and prefer to leave the silence hanging. Such individuals I am much less bothered about and even more less inclined to carry out amendment, but the former deserves a great amount of considerations.

Sleeplessness occurs to anyone, even the greedy sleeper. I think it happens because when darkness consumes you, the mind either eases into rest or begins to reflect about the day. Last night I was upset, over an episode that I feel is significant enough for me to think through repeatedly. I wonder if it makes sense to coax youself into not performing an act that you believe would benefit another person who protests otherwise.

Nonethless I am wide awake now, an alive mind gives me unflagging energy. I am still contemplative but less unhappy, and I'm looking forward to a merry lunch with Ashlyn and Christine!




There's an old uncle who comes by the office to sell very tasty assorted chips. I like him because I have a soft spot for old men who are pleasant. Today I bought lobster chips and bitter chips, then we found a cockroach in the office and he amused me with his agility to chase and catch it with his fingers, before sealing it with an envelope and squashing it. He seemed proud of his achievement as he presented the cockroach to the females, and kept saying "zhua mei du, she you du" i.e cockroach no poison, snake got poison.

=)

He is so cute!




It is friday again, I enjoy fridays pretty much.

Over the weekend I took a one day break at home and the next day I spent it at Jason's place, where we watchd Goodfellas and Juno with his sister. I remember how everyone would persuade me that Juno is a good movie but I found it way overhyped, the girl is cute but the songs are annoying, or perhaps we watched Goodfellas first and it had so much more depth. I've been dying to finish Revolutionary Road so... let's do it this week.

In the office, Grace and I settled into Kelly's cubicle after she flew off to London, and W.Kim brought the interns for Lunch on Thursday. He is really interesting and well-travelled, and on Wedesday he brought music and wine into the office and proposed a Friday clean up. Oh and I spilled an entire cup of Milo in the pantry, all over a black twill skirt, on the floor and the cupboards. Afterwhich I spent 15 mins cleaning up with mop napkins cloths and wondered if I should record it in my colorful paletted checklist.

I learnt, or rather experienced, this week that opinions can lead to conflict, but it's pretty amazing how Jason always manages to keep his cool, actually he just finds it funny that I get angry, if I shout he laughs, and that is so ridiculous that I find it stupid to be angry, so I guess arguments are kind of difficult to escalate to. I'm also slightly apologetic for having 'broken' part of his nose, but the act was applied out of a pure desire and instinct to help, sorry sorry! Anyway, I really like our chemistry. :)




Hello.
Omg sounds lame but I have no idea where to begin. A good week!

In office I spent a few days sitting at Yvonne's desk on her chair while Grace sat opposite me and Fookin was squeezed into the teeny space behind me ( he gave up eventually ).It's really weird because, since when do you sit in your boss's chair?? Basically our usual room was taken up by the SAP trainers and we were reduced to such awkward circumstances. On Friday, 2 Taiwanese Burberry staff came to occupy Yvonne's room so I scurried off to Kelly's desk and squeezed rather comfortably beside her, which was really alot of fun because I got exposed to interesting office gossip and I could sashay to the pantry in a less deliberate manner which means more frequent visits for Milo refills.

It was also really exciting because W Kim, the VP from Korea came, and true to hearsay he looks sooo young, although I felt embarassed because all the furious tapping at the laptop made me have sweaty palms when I shoke his hand ( I accidentally typed shook his head -.-). I hope it went unnoticed. The PR director from HK was also in office and with the Taiwanese girls and SAP staff, the place was very noisy and busy, with various accents, not to mention Kelly conversing in Indonesian (Malay?) and Korean and Chinese.

Workplace aside, I managed to catch Yipeng for a lunch before he flew off to Anfield. and he turned up half inebriated, taking 15 minutes to flip through the menu before deciding on... instant noodles and soya bean. On friday I walked out of Burberry at 7pm only to find Jason and his friends Clarissa and Carrie waiting at the 10th floor lift. :) We tried Smashed Chicken with VERYSPICYCHILLY and a suspicious looking blueberry concoction before trooping to a secret lounge and played a Picture Drawing Game ( I am frustrated, what isit called?Pictorian? ). Which I won! Btw I usually lose games which involve boards and cards. At 930 we redeemed free popcorn and watched State of Play, I like Russell Crowe I find him convincing and I think Rachel McAdams is cute, but Ben Affleck has become a bore, I remember he was hot in Pearl Harbour when he was needled in the butt. The movie was good, I really think the films this year are pretty enjoyable! Finally we had bachormee for supper and I fell asleep at 3 am.

=D




Week 2 has commenced.

In short, I am in Asia Travel Retail, I report to the GM Yvonne, who has curled hair and wears lots of black, enjoys reading and has 2 daughters. I work closely with KellyPark who is from Korea, ( she studied Art in a female-only university ). My jaw dropped today when Yvonne told me she would be flying to Taiwan and London and would only be back in July; Kelly would be off to London for 2 wks as well, which means, I work ALONE ( because Grace and Fookin are under different dpts). It is also worth mentioning that the office is really cold, meaning you wouldn't want to risk having a cardigan out of reach. One highlight was to watch a Webcast where Christopher Bailey showed clips of Emma Watson as the new Burberry model.

That's about it for now, it's been great so far, I really enjoy this even though I feel a little detached sometimes, when the darkness of the night and the humid air greets me, I get slightly confused of reality to be free from the office, where everything seems hurried and important admist customary exchanges of niceties. As always, the process of making new friends thrills me but correlates to missing my comfort zone and the people who are the closest to me. It makes me curious if there are loved ones I can fall back on, who will offer a listening ear and with whom I can share my stories as a way to partake in my day. I now opt to appear available on MSN, I read my friends blogs regularly with avidity, I sms and chat them with more passion, and little things make my heart warm in an exaggerated blown up fashion.

I haven't started to dread work yet, although on Sunday nights I miss the weekend already. I want slow, lazy yet meaningful weekends. The first workweek Saturday I went to Queensway, making my way through heaps of shoes and FBTs and Drifits. On Sunday morning I had tuition before heading over to Jason's for a perfect chilling session. I attempted to read Can Man Be Rational while he leafed through a heavy yellow book thickened with articles. After dinner we went opposite for lovely Hot Chocolate on red couches, had a nice talk before I trudged home, a little worn out. Monday came and it was intense, I left office at 8, got a headache and slipped into languidness, came home and was revived by the trusty Panadol, and tucked in heartily to buttery salmon and miso soup while watching a smacking new Shinhwa DVD. Finally I snuggle into bed, grateful to have the aircon on, drinking cold milk and taking my breakfast as supper, the pleasing warmth of the laptop against my thighs. At the same time i feel lost and vulerable, I find myself wanting, I sense a need for protection. I cannot explain why for lack of a good understanding of myself, but I know that sleep purges such emotional tugs.

I shall sleep now!




Hello from Burberryy office! =D

This place is pretty small and cosy, and I got quite a culture shock from the amount of Cantonese spoken. Today my supervisor came in still carrying her red luggage straight back from a 14 day London trip, and each of the 3 interns are assigned to a different supervisor. We sat in for a meeting which was really funny, and everyone's nice to us. Anyway the other interns are Grace and Fookin, I remember Grace from my Asia Pacific tutorial class. I've been told I can wear jeans to work, which is exciting; DBS was pretty strict. I've seen the preview of SS 2010, it's totally cool.

Sidetrack: The past 3 days were FANTASTIC. :)

Bye for now!




Facebook has a "How well do you know ___ " quiz. I haven't attempted any, but I was wondering what questions I would ask about myself. Truth be told I'm actually quite confused about myself, as much as it sounds like a post-teenage identity crisis. I think I'm rather fickle, unsettled, restless, stubborn but malleable, on the way to somewhere but barely reaching, caught inbetween. I resist being defined or explained. Also, on certain lonely nights, while the world sleeps on and I can hear my breathing loud and distinct, I secretly wonder if anything is real at all, when I feel distant from everyone and everything, I exploit the night's chilliness to hug myself, warm my palms against a habitual mug of Milo, stare mindlessly at the glaring laptop screen and face the white blogger interface. Like now.

But of course, these moments are short-lived, they dissipate easily, as recklessly as they came about. More often than not I'm thankful for what life offers, little things overwhelm me and I bask in contentment. So, the idea is that I pretty much oscillate between these states, which leaves me kind of confused and lost.

On a lighter note, after multiple Wasabi Deaths, today I had a Bubble Tea Death because I nearly choked on a bubble tea pearl, not exactly a glamourous way to experience near death I know. There was just too much pearlssss in the cup! So way after I had drank all the liquid I was still busy sucking up the pearls and shit happened. Anyway I actually don't like the taste of bubble tea, I drink it for the pearrllsss. Memorysake too I think.

nite!




Today I had an impromptu dinner with Jason, and there were many plan revisions before we met at 640 in the evening. We had tasty omu rice with cream and assorted seafood and idunnowhat laced with plenty of sauce, seaweed and mayonnaise. When we were done, we did some Secret Spy & Speculation while sipping Pomelo Barley ( Yum ) and found a guard in camouflage. After walking around the same building many times, we settled on watching Star Trek to round off the warm day, and it was surprisingly nice. Altogether it was a great day, and I'm going to end it right now with a long and lovely sleep.

=)




Goodnight world!

Life is great, but I'm too sleepy to write, way tired from over-exertion during teppanyaki buffet, ilovemeat. Mmmmm.

P.S Yes I got the internship and I'm real excited!

Cuz I'm burning for you
Burning like a candle




How did this happen? I haven't posted for a month!

Everything's been good by the way, it's a little sad that not every worthy event has their place in this space, but it has always been that way. Of late I've had a hearty appetite and a wasabi death, bought too much grey clothes and shall buy a cheddar coloured dress which shocked my mother, spent quality time with favourite people but it's never enough never complete, went for a Burberry internship interview, caught Taken which I loved, watched favourite Friends moments with my elder brother, slept too much with very vivid colourful thrilling dreams with an assortment of familiar faces, and the month also had its fair share of lovely lovely surprises.

I'm really thankful for just living.

There. Pictures soon:)




[12:40:56 AM] Ashlyn Chee Rui Yin says: today i go and check the horo
[12:41:15 AM] Ashlyn Chee Rui Yin says: it says the effects is 4 days past 15th leh


ok very good, everything in my prev post is now void.




15th passed by without any major mishaps! =) In fact I daresay it was one of the best days of the month, even though it is barely just over half the count. I shall do a brief recapitulation urhurm:

Sometime past midnight as the day began to unfold, Ash and I skyped, upping the apprehension because we are both cowards, more so because we are rather.. omg, superstitious (? ) Anyway we kind of freaked each other out, and the next afternoon I received a sms from Perth Ash whom I did not reply because I happened to glance up and found myself under a moving crane. I also managed to wriggle my way out of a very suspicious interview. =)

When evening sank in, Jason and I had a convivial dinner while watching the sky turn colors, a mutating canvas that shed its milky blue. Buttery garlic escargots, hamburg steak, omu rice and squid ink pasta. Every other diner seemed happy, but we thought ourselves the most content. On the way back, we passed by my favourite school, and the basketball court where I once tried to sleep in during The Angklung Camp. The day ended with a phonecall high, and finally at 130 a.m, I reclined in bed, satisfied and relieved.

karen says:
i havent open my dress yet
i mean your dress
but my dress is really 2 full layers lar they think i v cold right

dah says:
what u order again huh
i forgot alr
is it nice?
asos having 50% OFF NOW

karen says:
some black dress tt looks damn short on the model but is totally fine for me
HAHAHAH OMG DAH U DAMN BITTER RIGHT
and i got this black tube with the bow at the back and i love it lar but er, mus "squeeze into a tube" like toothpaste
like unzip all the way
then zip all the way
and look damn clumsy while doing that

dah says:
can breathe anot
sounds damn tight

karen says:
whats your problem
its because its tighter at the ribs there
then flare aft that
so tts why must squeeze
CAN BREATH LAR

dah says:
wahrenka u babble so much on ur blog its scary
its like u type type type
and vomit all the words right

I SCARED OF15TH APRIL, HOROSCOPE FORECAST WARN!

Please be good to me, please, let happiness be in superfluity and present to me a cordiform star and LET ME CONQUER.

Actually I think I will just succumb to the ineluctabale fate cuz, I love horoscopes hee, its my indulgence. Sounds like an ice-cream confession.

Or, I have a brilliant plan to deal with this supposedly insuperable shitthing I shall hide in a crab's shell safely =). Ok nobody understands its alright I need to releaseeee.

To be totally irrelevant but absolutely necessary ( to mention ), I'm drinking Milo Mochaa now and its the most terrible drink ever, omg, it tastes like lousy coffee. But I'm finishing it because 1. I don't waste food ( hahhaha rubbish ) and 2. I'm thirsty ( This is true because I can't find my green bottle so I have no water because I don't like to drink water using cup).

Somebody shut me up, goonite. Let the week be good!




2 papers down, suddenly i feel somewhat lost, detached. Tomorrow I shall wake with a clear mind. What is a clear mind! I cannot imagine clarity of thoughts, nor can I conjure thoughtlessness. My head is always contorted, mutable and cluttered. Do we all do that once in awhile, attempting to summon our brains to nullity, only to find one thought leading to the next, never ending, amorphous but intertwined, greedy and feral?




The quizzes actually surprise me, because of my options:

How would you feel just after you find out you lost to somebody?
Pissed.

Do you like to work with other people?
No.

How do you usually wear your hair?
up or down

What's your ideal guy?
A daredevil

What do u want to be in your afterlife?

[7:28:52 PM] Ashlyn Chee Rui Yin says: CHIPMUNK
[7:28:55 PM] karen chen says: I ALSO PUT THAT
[7:29:10 PM] Ashlyn Chee Rui Yin says: i thinking of putting deer act
[7:31:38 PM] karen chen says: oh shit u
[7:31:53 PM] karen chen says: i wanted to choose deer too
[7:31:54 PM] karen chen says: and then
[7:31:57 PM] karen chen says: i thought of a tree


Quiz results
Name: Olivia
Age: 21-30
Occupation:Nurse
First impression: Aggressive. You scare people.
Type of woman: Lovely lady

omg.




Following by Rodney Smithh, really really love them!


























My Consumer Behavior paper was beginning to look really fierce until I realised I had typed close to a page in full C.A.Ps. Oh my god.




Chips says:
u noe i start reading from the bottom like the latest entry
and your earrings became the bicycle
karen says:
OH DEAR
Chips says:
and the earrigns also became the confusing
wow
my english
karen says:
omg thats funny
my earrings has stalks
and i have bicycle earrings
and my evita peroni hairstick becomes a $1 steal
WOW
and i dont have hair for the bear



karen says:
i have horrible luck
Chips says:
me too
i got bird shit on me
karen says:
oh shit i jus LOL so LOUD
Chips says:
7 ppl stand in a circle i got bird shit on em
only me
then everyone ran away from me




Just deleted all the garbage that once took up the space to the left. So now it begins with the awkward tag board. Oh wiaos.


karen says: wad are u doin nw?
peng says: waiting for the fernando torres show
karen says: omg
wth is tt
peng says: hahahhaha
karen says: he is so cute
he has a show??
peng says: no no
karen says: i heard he is nominated for player of the yr along with gerrard
peng says: haha yes of course
they are awesome
and yes he is gorgeous
ok that came out weird
karen says: u sound like a fangirl
peng says: shh don't tell anyone
hahahhaha
karen says: oh dear but torres
is he married ah
peng says: getting married soon
fiancee
karen says: the gf from his childhood?
peng says: he got his first date with her tattooed on his shin la
hahah yes from 2001
i am not supposed to know this right
karen says: 2001 IS HIS CHILDHOOD?
peng says: well he was born in 84
so 2001 he only 17 la
karen says: oh so he was a 17 yr old child
wow
peng says: march 20 1984
karen says: FANGIRL
peng says: i am not supposed to know that either
karen says: yes u exceed my expectations
well done.
peng says: HAHA
aiyah i am going to keep quiet now




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I think i begin to sound like J!




Which is a very small deal in fact, I just wanted to try out the sketch function with Royce the Bear. However it was immensely boring.



#2



#3






I never got around to using this, although I've always thought it's really pretty, I haven't actually had the hair for the job.



A $1 steal.



Oversized earrings. More wirework, more telkari, more filigri, more ciftisi.



This is very confusing to me, it even has stalks! When will I be able to fold it....



Harang Saypo. Btw my lens bokeh seems to be turning crazy, I don't do any Photoshop blurring but see what I get! I think its borderline spoilt for the $100 lens which is really cheap.



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chips: issit harang saypo
karen: sarang heyo?
karen: its sarang heyo lar omg
Chips: its i love u in korean
Chips: very famous phrase
karen: harang saypo sounds like i hate you
karen: fil with tune llar says: harang saypo! omg
Chips: wad does harang saypo mean
chips: the one jason typed
karen: u typed tt
Chips: DID i
karen: YES
Chips karen i am so stupid
Chips: omg i just reread
Chips: i realised jason was laughing at me




What is it like to have truely lived?




On Friday we had a family movie and caught Gran Torino, which is omg good. I really liked it anyway. The next day I crawled to school for the third consecutive Saturday, got excited over Earth Hour, waited 20 minutes for the bus to Orchard, found myself staring at Damon and Wy and friendss playing pool. It was pretty cool because I had never actually talked to Ky and Zj before back in school. Anyway, Earth Hour was well spent calling Jason's handphone 1234567 times, ( because we were supposed to meet, nt because I am crazy ) it was terrible. Turned out that he switched off his phone for Earth Hour, damn funny. We had aglio olio and a lousy chocolate velvet and the most ridiculous waiter ever. Has anyone encountered a waiter like that? You have to ask him for water 3 times and he raises the jug and takes the cups and then he charges off to another customer and completely forgets. Oh dear... so cute so whatever.

This must be majorly boring. Buttt I feel a duty!




Oh dear I scare myself, I keep giggling at somebody's blog. Like with my legs crossed, left hand on my right hip, right fist propped against my mouth and I just keep giggling. And I don't even know this person. Rahh. But, I am not alone!




Randomly watched a kids programme for 5 mins

Markk Lee: A for?
Boy: A for B, A for C.
Marrk Lee:... A for Apple, B for?
Boy:A for Apple, B for... ( long pause ).. B for Orange

Wow.




Life! Where shall I begin? Things have been going really well, in a surreal manner and I've been pretty much carried away. Come next week, it shall get even brighter when my Dad returns. The major chaos has to be the unforgiving March weather, which has brought a crazy sun and sheets of pouring rain. I have observed snapshots of rainbows in the papers and across online communities, but I've yet to see one for myself! Do rainbows end? Is there a pot of gold awaiting?

Projectwork's getting intense this semester, more so than the preceding ones. I do enjoy Marketing, but I feel clueless about Accounting. In such a way time seems to speed up; weekdays overlapping into weekends, the week shortened.

Got to stop this from extending into a harangue, catch some sleep! Funny how I have to resist the urge to go 'yea, ( !! ) ( !? ), Nah, We'll see, See your luck, chill, Hmm, Depends, See how, Oh man" et cetera after a slew of Jason messages. One of my favourite activities is to walk beside him and study his side profile. A little stubble peeking out his chin, hair gently curled, keen intelligent eyes always observing, sometimes slightly obscured by the blanket of lashes, and very tiny ears.

I can barely keep my eyelids open, goodnight.




Hope that she can see
Through the smoke
Of my imperfections
Into my soul
And my heart
Where she has control

And I can't feel
The ground
Someone let me down
I said
I've never been
So high
As I am now
It's too good
To be true

I never felt a love
Strong enough to
Stop this world
From spinning









Am I greedy? To question if there is a perfect perfection, a happiest happiness. There are moments which I define as perfect, but when I revisit them in memory, I still wonder all the what ifs, could it have been different? Could it have been better? If it could be, would it be more perfect? Can perfection be more perfect?